Tuesday, October 30, 2018

Lessons From My Travels


After my accident in 2009, I quickly learned the world isn't made for wheelchairs. I've faced multi-story buildings without elevators; buses without wheelchair ramps, and metro stations without elevators. I know, it's crazy, right?  It's a struggle sometimes to not feel like the world is conspiring against me... and fight the reality that I'm trying to function in a world that was not built for someone in a wheelchair. But as the old adage goes, where there's a will, there's a way.

I told myself I would never let being in a wheelchair and lack of accessibility keep me from doing  all that I wanted to do. I made an internal decision to  push my limits in this wheelchair ensuring every second I am on this earth would not go to waste.. Determined to live my life as intentionally and fully as possible, my heart was set on world travel, even if it would wear out both me and AJ’s muscles!!I Well, after 23 countries and countless cities later, this wheelchair is still going strong (AJ is doing ok too)!

I've often asked myself, why do I go through all the trouble of being pulled up several flights of stairs? Why do I spend hours doing all this research to plan accessible trips? It's crazy the hoops someone in a wheelchair has to jump (or rather wheelie) through to enjoy all the world has to offer. And it all comes down to the valuable lessons I've learned from my travels.

Because I traveled...

I learned to love and appreciate people of other cultures. On my year-long foreign exchange to Brazil, I met my host families and friends, especially my best friend, Nina. I learned that we each have great potential for something special and that transcends culture. We share the same desires to love, to be loved, to be happy, to have a family, to be successful. My exchange helped me see the good, love, and commonalities across culture and want to share love and positivity everywhere I go. I learned that long-lasting happiness comes more often from the strengthening of relationships. My relationships and experiences changed me forever.
The time I surprised my friend, Nina in Brazil by popping out of this huge box as her wedding gift.
I gained a love for serving others. As an intern with an NGO in Cambodia, I saw the challenges brought by unfortunate circumstances that so many people must endure. I learned how privileged I was to be afforded so many opportunities, and I wanted to make the most out of those opportunities to serve those who needed some lifting. It instilled in me a desire to seek tomake a difference for other people and empower them to live full, happy lives. It is partly the reason why I decided to pursue a master's in public administration and enhance my skill set to help others. I wanted - and still do want - to create opportunities for them to attain the lives they want for themselves and their family.


This was us through most of Angkor Wat, Cambodia.

I found joy in simplicity.
Something I learned in Cambodia from people who didn't have many earthly belongings was that I don't need material items to be happy. I learned that I could live more simply and be happy. I lived that whole summer with alternating between 7 pairs of shirts, 3 pairs of pants, 2 pairs of shoes, and 2 dresses (for church). I didn't look fashionable, but I made adventuring fashionable in my life. I worried it was going to be too much sacrifice with less technology, fewer transportation options, less money, but we were really happy there. I loved getting to see how people lived off the basic necessities. I loved walking in the torrential rain pours. I loved disconnecting and not having Facebook on hand all the time. I learned I could live with less material items in my life. Since then, I seek to live my life a little differently than before. I don't spend a lot of money on clothes and wear my clothes until they have holes. "Recycle" is a big word my kids know all too well. We max out as much of our items as possible. I learned I can be happy with less.

I saw that everyday people can make lasting changes. As an intern at the Scottish Parliament and in Washington D.C. (the time I met the POTUS), I came to appreciate how policy helps protect people as a whole (for the most part), as well as the influence citizens can have on policy when they voice their concerns to their leaders. I loved how much my member of Scottish Parliament cared for policy impacting elderly individuals because he listened to their stories and worked to meet their needs. I loved that marching and lobbying for the Convention of the Rights of people with Disabilities caught the attention of Senate leaders and the POTUS.
Meeting President Barack Obama.

I found peace and power in stillness.
Every now and then, AJ and I take our family away from the city for a quick escape to the mountains. The mountains have a great way of reminding us that we are a part of something special. We are a part of something bigger. As I'm surrounded by these beautiful mountains, my soul rejoices. I find peace and a closeness to God as I embrace the stillness of all around me and reflect on my life, my desires, and my goals. And every time I return to the mountains in the snow, I get excited because then I know it's time to get into my monoski, break the bonds of my wheelchair, and shred (or fall...either is pretty fun and acceptable for me). Good things come from these mountains. One of our favorite nature spots is Yosemite National Park


I learned resilience through tough times and don’t sweat the small stuff. When navigating new spaces and pushing yourself through new routines, learning to rely on your companions and even complete strangers, you prove to yourself that you are more capable than you ever thought. The first time we rode the metro up to the Sacre Coeur in Paris, we got off and went searching for an elevator to get out of the station. But after searching around to no avail, we both got in our dynamic duo stance, me carrying our backpacks and AJ flexing his muscles and gripping my wheelchair handles about to take me down a couple of stairs (takes a lot of faith, but I sure love this man!). But, a couple of guys on their way out spoke to us in French and after seeing the blank looks on our faces, they just motioned and picked me up in my wheelchair and started their descent. We have been able to see the kindness of so many people through these tough times. And we've learned over and over again not to sweat the small things so much because it will all work out. We can take on anything that comes our way.

I know that many people learn these lessons (I hope) without having to travel around the world, but the point is that we have to actually leave our homes to learn these things. We've got to push our comfort zones to be able to learn these valuable lessons--to make a profound difference for ourselves and others. I've just found that for me, traveling around, pushing my stress and anxiety level, and seeing new places truly fill my soul.

As a couple, we are trying so hard to make travel part of our family culture, whether they be little trips to mountains, or a trip to Asia. We hope our children will desire to learn people's stories. We hope that over time, as they learn more of the history of the places we travel to, we can instill in them a curiosity to learn from the past and move forward towards a better, brighter future. We hope they will gain a passion of exploration and thirst for knowledge of how things work, so they can find greater solutions. Imagine the positive change that may come for the next generation as they seek to understand other people, learn from their surroundings, explore other options, and work together towards something greater.

The lessons I've learned from my travels are priceless. I've gained so much perspective and fed my adventurous spirit through my travels. I would never trade all that I've learned, even if it means getting kicked out of a bus station in Rome in the dead of winter....which did happen. But that's a story for another post.

As you can see, there are so many reasons to travel. Why do you travel? What's next on your bucketlist? I'd love to hear some of your thoughts on this, so comment below!



Friday, October 26, 2018

So I Met the President...

As we've been contemplating a direction for our family, I've been trying to draw on my past experiences for some inspiration. I came across one of my most memorable experiences--the time I met President Obama. That was the time that reaffirmed my passion and desire to make a difference for the disability community.

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Repost from Diary of a Traveling Wheelchair:

August 6, 2012

I had the opportunity to sit down with the President of the United States, Barack Obama, his staff members, Valerie Jarrett, Cecilia Muñoz, and Kareem Dale, along with 11 other American Association of People with Disabilities (AAPD) interns to discuss the future of disability policy.

For 50 minutes, we had a detailed discussion with the White House staffers about our concerns and thoughts on all aspects of disabilities.  Suddenly, the door bursts open and in walks President Obama with his winning smile to the Roosevelt office and he says, "Hello Everyone," and everyone, stunned, stood up (minus me, Ben and Allie who are in wheelchairs).  I looked over to Ben and Frances and we widened our eyes at each other.  He proceeds to shaking everyone's hands, asking their names and where they are from.  Halfway through, he gets to me, shakes my hand and I say, "Hi Mr. President.  My name is Martina.  I'm from Fresno, Ca, and my heart is pounding so hard right now." He laughs, gives me a hug, and then says, "I'm glad you're here.  Nice to meet you, Martina." 


It was an amazing session spent with all of his attention focused on what we interns had to say about our concerns for our disability community.  So many important issues and concerns were raised on behalf of our disability community as well as suggestions for change, which were noted by his staffers.  Some of the main points made were the need to decrease unemployment rates (very high 27% among those with disabilities, which his administration has been working hard to change, at least federally by opening up jobs for our population), increase community integration i.e. via education (equal opportunities and rights to higher education), and expand accessibility (universal design for everyone).

I talked about the importance of integration of people with disabilities into society/community via jobs, education, etc.  I focused more education because I feel the administration is making strides right now with employment of people with disabilities (and continue to improve).  I feel that if you want to instill values in someone, the best time is start is when they are young, which could be through the school system from K-12.  People become more aware, tolerant, considerate, and inclusive of people with disabilities when they gain more exposure to those who are different from them--this has been the case for many family and friends of mine.  Imagine a world where everyone including business owners and civil engineers realize that simple accommodations can be made for those with disabilities including elevators in business buildings, accessible elevators at metro stations, voice software for the blind (i.e. Siri was created for the blind), etc. that allow us to be highly functioning and independent individuals and able contribute to the progress of our country. And amazingly, people from all aspects of society have become beneficiaries of these services as well, e.g., parents use elevators for strollers, people use Siri when driving, etc. 

It was reassuring when President Obama told us that disability issues were very personal to him and something he cared deeply about.  I knew he meant it when he shared his story about his father-in-law who was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis (MS) and the struggles he faced before ADA time, getting to his sons' basketball games an hour early with his family to get to the seats, as well as going to Michelle's dance recitals with difficulty.  He understood that there are challenges within our society that can be addressed with simple accommodations.  He said that his goal is to "provide equal opportunity for everyone in this nation to maximize their talents if they are willing to work hard."  That includes those who are in the disability community.  He told us that we are the future leaders of America, especially in the disability community, and encouraged us to continue to be self-advocates.  We can run a sub 50 in disability rights. It's important that our community is heard and that our requests are on the table. 


I left the meeting feeling empowered to get more involved in my community.  I gained so much perspective of the role I can play in our disability community.  Direction may come from a little inkling which may morph into a strong passion for great change. This meeting instilled a desire in me to serve and reaffirmed my passion for service.  I have thoroughly enjoyed this summer and cannot wait to apply all I've been taught to create change towards a better quality of life for others.

I want to thank American Association of People with Disabilities (AAPD) for making this experience possible and for all the great work they put towards advancing the disability movement. This has been an incredible summer and I couldn't have asked for a better adventure.  I look forward to what is in store.

Top: Rak, Jim, Mark, Frances, Zoe, Rachel, Shawn, Stephanie, Bonnie, Paul
Bottom: Ben, Allie, Me, Dana, and Adam in front of the West Wing

Thursday, June 21, 2018

Is grad school right for me? Thoughts from a Grad School Mommy


Two years ago, my family and I embarked on a crazy, wild journey to earn my master’s degree in public administration. I had reached a point in my career where I had learned as much as I could from my job and needed more education to advance in my career. I had always wanted to work in public service, helping the most disparaged populations get the help they need, so this degree was a natural draw for me. My husband and I thought about it for a long time and felt like it was the right thing for our family. But we still had a mortgage and bills to pay, so I kept my full-time job while pursuing this degree. Needless to say, I have relied heavily on the support of my husband, in-laws, and friends to make this happen, and there were so many sacrifices along the way. I wanted to write this blog post for all those parents who are considering graduate school, or any schooling in general.

Celebrating my acceptance into the BYU MPA program. (Look at baby Audrey. She couldn't even walk yet)
Working is kind of draining. Schooling is kind of draining. Parenting is kind of draining. And when you put it all together, you really do get draiiiiined! Here’s a reality check of what it’s like going to do it all at once.

It’s draining. I often felt like every hour of every day was scheduled with things that I “need to do.” In the mornings, I would get myself ready and then get my children ready (sometimes pleasant, sometimes not so pleasant experience) so my husband could take them over to grandma’s house. Then, I got myself to work and worked for a few hours before lunch. Lunch breaks consisted of pumping milk for my newborn while doing homework for my classes. The rest of the day consisted of finishing up work, getting home, getting dinner ready, hanging with the kids, picking things up around the house a little, and then homework until midnight or past. And then, I woke up and did it all over again. Yeah, you can see how one gets drained after doing this for so long. Sometimes, it took everything within me to keep my eyes open and write just one more paragraph. My mind, my body, and sometimes even my soul got drained.

I know, it sounds hard already. BUT the trick here for me was to figure out my routine and incorporate the essentials that would help me take care of myself and keep me going. That thing theyl tell ya about good sleep, exercise, and nutrition... it's real. I wasn't always super good at doing all fo these things all the time, but organization and making it a priority were key, very truly honestly. You make time for things you care about and these bare essentials will help you function as a person, so please, please, please make time for them, regardless of whether or not you're going to grad school, but especially because you have these responsibilities. This is taking care of yourself. And it doesn't have to be an exact everyday thing, but it could be. My "thing" was monoskiing and hand cycling, and I tried to schedule those things in as much as I could. Skiing was a bit longer of a commitment so sometimes even just once a week and doing as much as I could to compensate at home. Meal prep on Sundays. And SLEEP!! Limit your all-nighters if you can! (My body and brain can't do that anymore, so that's a no brainer ;)

Another thing is do something that is good for your soul, e.g., reading scriptures, taking walks, planting something low maintenance, talking with a friend throughout the week (once, maybe twice a week? whatever works for you!). I still wanted to feel like there was me somewhere amidst all the responsibilities. Think long term and take care of yourself.

This could be you working and being a lap pillow while your baby sleeps on you. (Look at toddler Audrey!)

It requires discipline.
It sounds simple right? But it was an everyday battle for me to decide what or who I was going to put into my schedule. There were times where I overcommitted to different responsibilities that took me away from my core activities (family, school, work), and I had to learn to become more disciplined with my time. I learned it takes a great deal of discipline to follow through with the schedule as well. Sometimes, if I didn’t get enough sleep the night before I spent time sleeping during lunch instead of doing homework. You can be FLEXIBLE. Sometimes, I had no motivation because I was simply too tired and just wanted to veg out. Those days are allowed, but I had to be careful not to get sucked in and fall behind because it would be so difficult to catch up. I had to remember my end goal! I wanted to make the most out of this experience, learn as much as I could, make as many friends as I could, be as happy as I could, so I needed to do those little yet necessary things that would allow me to make things happen. 

It takes sacrifice. I tried hard to maximize my time with family wherever I could, realizing I still wanted to share memories of this time in school with them—hence scheduling as much as I could. I chose when and how I would dedicate my time. Family time was family time. Work was work. And school was school. To facilitate this a little better, there were certainly things I cut out like running errands with my family on Saturdays so I could study, and not being a part of my kids’ bedtime routine (my husband was mega in this area). I didn’t always like it because I like spending time with my kids and seeing all the funny things they do, and ways they develop, but I kept telling myself that this is a short season and I tried as best I could to be present whenever I was with them. As much as I tried to stay organized, I learned that my house would probably never be clean while in the program, and the neat freak in me had to really, really learn to let it go sometimes (as long as I could still find things, I was OK). These are simple sacrifices, but sometimes, when you're already feeling crummy after an crappy exam, or you're just tired, it can weigh on you, but be kind to yourself. Whether you're going or not going through school, there's always sacrifice elsewhere. There's always a dilemma. Time on career, time with family? Money on house or money on vacation? It depends on what kind of sacrifice you want to make. Just remember, what's it worth to you?

It can be lonely. Initially, because I had so much packed in my schedule, I couldn’t fit in visiting friends on a regular basis like I got to do in undergrad. I went through the grind of my routine and sometimes had this feeling of isolation—like I was doing this alone. It was difficult for me to really connect with anyone because I didn’t want to add more to my plate, having to coordinate time with another person’s schedule or mixing up my routine a little to accommodate someone else seemed like extra work and stress for me. But the reality was that I wasn’t going through this alone and sometimes, that simple little stress is great for return on investment compared to the stress from exam prep. There was a whole support system of family, friends, colleagues who were all going through their own experiences and they needed a friend, too. If I wanted to, I could reach out as much or as little as I wanted to (it's win-win). I was grateful for people who did reach out to me. I was really grateful for people who were available to spend some time impromptu. I was grateful for help babysitting. All these people helped me get over that feeling of loneliness in the beginning. But over time, it got to be a little easier to manage life's responsibilities.

This experience made me more aware of the challenges others are facing (probably silently) and try to be a lot more empathetic. I committed to looking for opportunities to support others who might need a little connection and human pick me up.

It’s not for everyone. People often tell me that they wouldn’t be able to do what I’m doing. And the truth is, they probably could if they wanted to. But that’s the thing, do they want to? This path is not for everyone. As mentioned, it’s not the most fun to have one more thing on your plate. It’s hard to sacrifice more of your precious, valuable time in pursuit of a degree. It’s lame to have to do homework on nights and weekends instead of having a delicious popcorn movie night. I know I was very fortunate to have a great support system to compensate for areas that I could not tend to. My family and my sweet friends helped a ton with my children whenever I needed help. My husband took care of grocery shopping. I auto-pay all my bills so I wouldn’t have to think about them. There are so many factors into making this path work, and yes, probably many barriers as well. BUT, if you really feel passionate about it, then you shouldn’t let all these other factors stop you. You know yourself best. You can determine whether you want to do this. You do you. Just know that if you want to, YOU CAN DO IT. I would support you 100%.

Now that I’ve finished you’re probably wondering, “Was it indeed worth it?” And the answer is a simple, unequivocal “Yes.” There are so many things I’m grateful for from this program, (and I'll more about it in another post). But for now, I’m grateful for the confidence to face the unknown and work through anything. I have learned skills through my program that have helped me become a better wife, mother, and coworker. I’m grateful for my associations with intelligent and compassionate people. I’m humbled to learn from talented people who are living such faithful lives and striving to make a difference in the lives of others. While I haven’t quite landed my dream job (anyone got any leads??), I am confident in my ability to go into my next professional role with the skills to make a real impact. Plus, no tests and lots of baby cuddles means life is good!

I don't have all the answers, but I hope you were able to benefit from these lessons I’ve learned on my master’s degree journey. This is a great time for some introspection. Remember, sometimes, the craziest things you do are the best things you do. Whatever it is that you decide, you do you! Please share your thoughts in the comments or pass this on if you think it might be helpful to someone else!

Adventure On!

-Martina


EMPA Class of 2018! I'm grateful for this cohort that opened their arms to a newcomer like me.

P.S. It took a village to make this degree possible. I wanted to thank God for providing me with the strength and determination to do this. My supportive, patient, and kind husband, thanks for holding down the fort while I pursued this degree. It was a team effort to coordinate preschool days, Costco runs, errands, homework time, class time, meetings, and everything in between. You are amazing. My children, thanks for giving me time to study and occasionally picking up toys and cleaning your room so my wheelchair doesn't trip over all the littles things on the ground. Oh and your sweet hugs and kisses when I need them the most. My family members, especially my in-laws for all the babysitting hours you put in and the example you set for my children that families stick together. My professors, thanks for all the knowledge and experience you shared with us each week, and for stretching us and teaching us to strive for positive change. My colleagues from my original cohort class of 2019 and my current cohort class of 2018, thanks for all the laughs and perspectives--I'll make sure to put in a good word for your final grades ;) My friends, thanks for keeping me sane and being so patient with me.